2012-04-01

02:27h: - have begun to write on lukasgirtanner.com (for the past hours), but now, something seems to have happened, the connection is blocked. "network problems"... probably, - wrote something wrong. loud thinking is obviously not welcome respectively might not be welcome. what is the reason? maybe, it was premature, - should not have focused on such a detail, but instead on what - wrote in the past days. the connection is now open again. maybe the thinking was too associative, to many parenthesis, but - am unsure myself about which visions/eschatologies to write respectively what kind of significance they have.

02:50h-02:58h: This interruption has some impact on me, - know that - am watched or at least - suspect/guess it (- knew it anyway; and - was on the other hand also longing for another sign; but this interruption is another kind of "interaction", no cursor movement ;-), just no connection instead ;-) ). - will probably continue writing in a similar way like the interruption would not have happened, but subconsciously, - might partially lose my motivation to write or not write things that - would otherwise have written. The bottom line is the survival of (wo)mankind (again, more ideas to that topic, the issue might be more complex, but - don't see through) (and also participating in the struggle for l..., avoiding being punished in a possible afterlife should it exist; sorry for all these parentheses, it is difficult to read) and - am committed to that (survival (and maybe even keeping society stable which is also important and on a societal level this has a lot to do with survival (amendment of 12:15h: it might have been better (more precise) if - had written it differently, what is the bottom line / essential is that the lifeforms on Earth remain alive also in the far future (this is a really complex issue and much is probably unclear / remains unclear, at least for me (but actually, - wrote that already yesterday, - just want to avoid the notion of changing too much into a societal perspective because l... (including the transformations) is much more complex and inclusive of everything); end of the amendment of 12:15h)))), that's the main reason why - am doing all this work.

hopefully, - did not write anything wrong here. "- don't want to worsen the situation" - wanted to write, but maybe the interruption was also a private entity (but - don't think); no, this is l... too, if there is an interruption, somebody cares for me, somebody feels l... at least in an indirect way, he wants to help, to give a sign, this is an interaction; - would just like to remind everybody how complex the issues are and how difficult it is to outbalance the various interests (and subjective feelings of l...) in an immensely complex world where practically nothing is known.

one effect might be that - switch back to writing everything on lukasgirtanner.com because it is more responsive and where - can be alerted more easily if - have written something which is problematic (maybe just a suboptimal wording or too many parentheses) ;-) ; - in some way welcome such interruptions and if - only have them on lukasgirtanner.com and not in this blog here, - should actually switch back entirely to lukasgirtanner.com.

17:30h-17:53h (in the time between, also written the text below): Now, - also had the first interruption here after - wanted to write that on lukasgirtanner.com, there are longer delays than previously which is a sign that everything that - write and provisionally upload when pressing on the "Show changes" button is already read. But - am grateful for everything, it is amazing how people (at least somebody) are/is reading the website, how people care for each other, and everybody just tries to serve l... . If my impression is right, - have to write in a really concentrated/controlled/responsible way. On the other hand, the interruptions might have various causes, it is unclear. - also welcome all e-mails or - can also be contacted via Facebook if suggestions are necessary. Maybe, - should really change my blog back to lukasgirtanner.com because the preview ("Show changes") functionality there is more responsive and this is also a proven way of uploading the text because in spring/early summer 2010, - also had this kind of "delays" when uploading the texts. What is probably in the spirit/intent of G-d is that people maneuver themselves somehow through a gigantic and complex world filled with l... and just try to somehow increase it or do their best to adhere to it, constantly, all the time. And it is so difficult to know which action serves G-d and its l... best. And if there is an interaction with other people (in this case without an exchange of words), the situation is even more complex, - should actually write uninterrupted, not influenced by it. And interestingly, almost everything is finished, - have taken so many notes, - just have to upload them. (only the time in autumn 2011 is still a huge issue/backlog (unwritten backlog) but that is another "issue" and one of the biggest mysteries how people can live through such a marvellous time and not be able to express it because they forgot the details and even whole ideas.)

17:38h: - have just thought that it might be more "honest"/"consistent" to not live with my mother B. because - am somehow living in an artificial situation, she does all the householding for me and - am already 32 years old. But living independently from my mother B. is probably difficult and in the occupy camp of Zurich, there is no powerline (and also no chair and table) for an individual tent and a relatively slow connection and - am also very sensitive to the smoke that one has to inhale there, - should live in a smoke free environment. The best would be if - worked part-time in the IT industry or even in robotic education, but this is not the case (- also don't have a computer science degree unfortunately, maybe - will try to catch up on it), so this is not possible. On the other hand, - can fully concentrate on writing the website (this is also some kind of "work" and - am really grateful for being allowed by my "fate" to do it). But - just wanted to say that - am aware of these issues.

17:59h: - will probably switch back to the "I", at least in the instances where the scope of a statement is limited. I should distinguish when the "-" is appropriate, for example in the context of l... or G-d or when writing about ideological issues (ideological, because of motivating people, yes, it is risky, one should avoid exclusively believing in an ideology, stricly avoid). But when writing about more general (or technical) issues, I should use the "I" normally. And I (initially, I wrote "-" again, this has become some kind of automatism and exactly that doesn't make sense) will have to correct the date, because it has already been April the first (in CEST) for a long time.

19:59h: I corrected it now, it is now on a new first of April page.