2012-04-07

01:51h: I understand now more why there was this network interruption after I had been writing on lukasgirtanner.com the section about winning or losing on the page "Additional ideas" (and I thought really a long time about it in the past days). I was unbalanced respectively not diverse enough respectively not humble (if this is the appropriate word) enough and I did not describe elaborately enough what kind of attitude I had (but no longer have, at least not strictly) towards the topic of playing a competitive game. Furthermore, I was also somehow still indirectly within old (and very bad/wrong/detrimental) thinking when I wrote this section and not aware how detrimental this thinking was. (The two issues interdepend too.) I really apologize for this premature writing respectively not having written more elaborated, in detail and balanced about it from the beginning. I might make up leeway for that on that page, this will be quite a long section and I will have to write a lot / enough so that no misunderstanding happens (and it is an important (and relatively interconnected) topic).

Some keywords already now: being "normal", being balanced/diverse also and especially in the context of this topic, being playful, playfully competitive in a "normal" way, not competitive in an absolute or "overcoming"/"(I deleted this word on 24th of April 2012, after having repeatedly thought about it in the preceding/previous days, because it is really an absolutey wrong way of thinking about any (competitive) interaction.)" way (this is indeed really bad/destructive as I have realized now even more, and I should work on that should I still have last remains of such an attitude which I don't think, I was able to "switch it off" or leave it behind), being grateful for a game just for the game's sake; allowing/appreciating activities/processes where something is concluded, that have an end, too (like a game, which has an ending); the importance of social activities (with rules and mutual attention; being structured); I will have to write a lot about it, it has a lot to do with maturity and "letting go"/being relaxed, not being focused on one's own ego in a wrong way.

And at the same time recognizing that babies don't engage in competitive activities (at least not in the way older children do), so it is also an issue of maturity respectively an attitude that develops with growing up. It has to do with rules and also the question of (mutually) "developing" (and cooperation) instead of (or as an alternative, but not an exclusive one in real learning environments) "competition" (respectively an intermediate area) is an issue.

So, from now on, I will generally need to write in a more reflective, balanced (trying to include diverse activities and attitudes) and also elaborate way while at the same time always sticking to a few basic values.

In the meantime, I have written a lot of offline notes and (this is a different respectively more general topic) I am now more aware of the complexity of the issue and how important it is to be able to distance oneself from any (new and) absolute ideology (including mathematization, but this might be a special case, but it is still new and absolute respectively too absolute to fully/exclusively believe in). This new insight respectively systematics (being able to take a distance from it) about my own eschatologies/ideologies is also the basis for continuing to write (in a sensible way).

And focusing on more concrete topics like real learning environment proposals and how I see their importance (and again, to relativize the importance/exclusiveness of what is new) will also be important. I will also have to write a lot about babiness/babyishness (and at the same time also about maturity and self-control) and its significance.